There he was, alone in the pouring rain, wondering if this was it. He looked at the bright lights of the ambulance as it drove off. He felt empty inside and could not understand what had just happened. Suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder and winched. He heard a voice but did not want to listen, nothing seamed important at the moment. “Please come in, it´s pouring outside”. The voice belonged to his sister, Anna, but Alex just stand still, looking into the dark. The ambulance was now long gone, but it didn´t matter. How could anything matter again?
He had met her for the first time almost seven years earlier. She had worked at the local coffeeshop and even though Alex didn´t drink coffee he used to visit the shop every day just to see her. Her name was Amanda and Alex thought that she was the most fascinating girl he had met. He knew straight away that she was the girl he wanted to marry some day. And they did get married, three years later, a beautiful wedding and the reception in a castle nearby.
As he stood in the church waiting for her to begin the walk down the aisle, when the music begun he turned around and at the moment he saw her he felt the most happy he´d ever done. At that moment he made a promise to himself and to her that they would be together forever and that no matter what happened he would take care of her.
Their night had started as many other sundaynights. They had decided to have a quiet evening at home and as Alex began to cook Amanda decided to leave the house to drive to rent a movie. He plugged in his iPod to his ears and started to cook. When she had not come home within an hour he got the feeling that something was not right. As he turned off the music he heard voices on the street outside. Many people had gathered on the sidewalk just outside their house, all of them looked a woman on the ground. He heard two policemen talking to a young man sitting in the back of an ambulance. He had his arm in a bandage. The man looked sad and seemed in shock. It was now that Alex realized who it was lying on the ground, Amanda. He ran towards her but was soon stopped by a medic. “Do you know this woman?” He asked.
“She is my wife” Alex answered.
The medic looked at him and quietly said, “I´m sorry…” But as he heard those words Alex broked down, his whole world was shattered. And nothing else that he was told mattered.
It was not until later that Alex was told that she had just backed out from the driveway and drove off when a young man came driving and crashed into her car. He had made it with a few minor injurys but Amanda had not been as lucky.
Everything they had been through together seemed like forever ago as Alex began to walk back into the house, their house. He was soaking wet but he did not feel anything else but sadness and a feeling of that he had let her down. “Amanda” he said quietly to himfelf as he had done many times before. It used to make him feel relived, safe and happy but it now sounded empty. He looked around as if he waited for her to answer him. She never did.
